So much has happened lately and earlier; I should really write journals more often … And suddenly I decided to cut my journals into different categories to get some system in the news I’m bringing you about me, what I’m doing and why. The three categories are written in bold, of course.

Introducing:


Life
I did cut my hair this week; half of it is gone. I hated it, the non-shape wisp on the top of my head, only making me look ridiculous. I sure will publish some photos on my other account some day. It’s not that short; I like it like this. Well, wish I could get my hair falling at least down to my hips, but sadly my hair isn’t made to be that long.

I knew one person from before when I started at this new school. She looked like a good friend in the beginning, but later she turned out to be a person who does what she wants when she wants. She probably exploits me; tells my other friends that she’s my boss and everything. I’m pretty pissed of now, that’s for sure. Oh, she also hits me – in my back head – as well as some of her other “friends”. I mean, you can’t call a person a fool, or cunt, and in the same time call them you’re friends, anyhow when you additionally hits them. I think I hate her, but I won’t show it tomorrow. Tomorrow I’m just going to confront her.

As you now may see I’m struggling when it comes to confrontation. I should have told her what I felt when she hit me last Friday, but I didn’t. I said to myself constantly: “Tell her in today’s lunch break!!” But I didn’t. I feel like a stupid fool right now, unknown of what’s the best for me. Yeah, I could call myself what I want, but hearing it from others is like… destruction.

I’m telling her on school tomorrow, leaving that group of friends and finding me some new ones. I won’t come back until she gets to control herself or show me some respect.


Designing (clothes)
I may not have told you about my interest and sense of design; I don’t think I have. Well, I want to do so much with my life, but something is both easier and more realistic than the other ones.

I want to be a clothes designer and a fashion photographer.

I have not so much time to work in anything of this, but I’m often thinking of how I could mix my clothes together and make great outfits that almost no one else would think of wearing. To best describe my style of clothes you say: “ut on as many pieces of clothing as you can – not more than two of the same color (this excludes contrasts [only black and white]) – without being unable to move properly, or faint of heat.”


Photographing (includes photographs and absolutely unofficial/homemade photo shoots [clothes])
I’m just planning on doing some photo shoots some days ...